It was such an incredibly long morning. I can't even describe how many deep breaths I had to take. We were just leaving for preschool and I was telling you that I had to pick you up early because we had to go to Kindergarten Orientation today. You began asking questions instantly....
What time are you coming?
How many minutes is that?
Will we miss snack?
Will we miss play time outside?
Where is the Kindergarten?
Do we ever get to go to preschool again?
Didn't you say we were going to do Kindergarten at home?
After all the questions had been answered there was about 30 seconds of silence before the hysteria began. Connor just started bawling. Hunter started yelling at me. The conversation was happening faster than I could think, and I was really struggling to keep up with both of you. For the sake of easy reading, I'll write the statements in different colors. Connor-green, Hunter-blue, Mommy-red.
It's going to be 10 + 10 +10 + 10 + 10 +10?
What? What's going to be 10 +10
We're just going to have to go to Kindergarten and then GO TO SLEEP! THAT'S IT!
Who said anything about going to sleep?
That's how many minutes until you come get us?
Come get you from where, we're going together to the orientation.
YOU SAID WE WERE DOING SCHOOL AT HOME NEXT YEAR!
We are, but we're going to take some classes at the school to make friends, like Karate.
You won't pick me up, WAAAAAAAA!
Of course I'm going to pick you up.
WHY CAN'T YOU TEACH US KARATE?!
I DON'T KNOW KARATE!
I dont' know anyone there.
You'll make new friends.
No. My friends are at preschool.
THEN I JUST WON'T TAKE KARATE! I WANT TO HAVE SNACK!
We'll get a snack when the orientation is over.
NOT FROM PRESCHOOL!
How will we know what our friends at preschool ate for snack?
I don't know. I don't know. I DON'T KNOW!
Finally, we were at preschool. Connor sulked into the building. Hunter stomped into the building. I warned your teachers that you were upset. A little over an hour later I picked you up to go to orientation. You seemed to be in a better mood, very relaxed. Until we got to the car. Connor spent most of the car ride to MCP just listening to Hunter yell at me. Honestly, I was in such shock I didn't really know how to handle it.
You never think about Ashlynn.
Honey, what about Ashlynn.
I'll never see her again!
We still have 4 days of preschool left, preschool graduation, and an end of the year party that you'll see Ashlynn at.
NO! YOU JUST SAY, NO ASHLYNN!
I only said that at your birthday party because Mommy and Daddy can't afford to have a party for everyone in your class, and we feel it's best to only invite boys if the whole class can't come.
You never let me do anything I want.
Would you have preferred if we didn't have a birthday party at all?
YOU'RE CANCELING MY BIRTHDAY PARTY TOO?!
Connor, your birthday isn't for another year, I'm talking about the one we already had.
YOU'RE JUST GOING TO SAY NO TO ASHLYNN ALL THE TIME!
I promised you we would have an end of the year party and that we would invite Ashlynn and we're going to. I'll have Daddy make the invitations tonight and you can hand them out at school on Friday.
I DON'T THINK YOU'LL REALLY INVITE HER.
I SAID I WOULD AND I WILL! IF YOU KEEP THROWING THIS TANTRUM WE'LL HAVE NO PARTY!
WAAAAA, NO PARTY NOW?!
Finally, we arrived at the school. As we were getting out of the car Connor asked if Kaylee got to come too. I explained that Kaylee was too little and that you had to be 5 years old to go to Kindergarten and that she would stay with me.
WAAAAAA!!!! I'm NOT too little! I'm taller see?! I grew! I want to go too!
It took me another five mintues to talk Kaylee down and make her feel good about being three and convince her that she's going to have a great time at Preschool next year.
Connor walked slowly into the building, Hunter stomped, Kaylee sulked, and I waddled, defeated.
The next few minutes went pretty quick as we got on our name tags and split up.
I didn't see you again for about 40 minutes. You two were on your scavenger hunt and Kaylee and I were learning about what subjects I need to teach you at home and what curriculum the school library already has, what we need to buy, etc.
When we reconnected you were excited to show me that you had stars on all the spots for the scavenger hunt. You even showed me the miniature candy bar you won! When we got to the car your excitement just started spilling out. You were both excited about the Karate class. You saw kids in the class practicing their moves and you for sure want to take Karate next year. You also thought the painting class looked pretty fun. You like the area where they have lunch even though it's a bit of a walk away. Overall, you were very impressed with the school. Connor even said he thought it would be fun. I felt relieved, so relieved that you wouldn't be stressed all summer. I felt happy, incredibly happy that you were happy and that it was a good time for you. I felt irritated, almost to tears, that we had such a rough morning for nothing- WHY DON'T YOU JUST TRUST ME?! Ugh. I'm sure I did this to my mom and your kids will eventually do it to you- which actually makes me feel a little better about how the morning went, knowing it comes around full circle.
I love you so much. I know next year is going to be full of changes, but they'll be good changes. Preschool was scary too, and we survived. We survived and we loved it. So just imagine how much fun this next adventure will be...
XOXO,
Mommy
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| The last time you were both this upset at the same time... I remember being so overwhelmed I just started laughing and I went to get the camera to document the moment. You were 8 weeks old. =0) |
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